I Surrender All.

Young woman enjoying sunlight with raised arms in canola field

I have been joking with my co-workers for months that I would love nothing more than to be a “kept woman”.

They thought I was kidding.

I have been blessed to work in a progressively influential position for a non-profit organization for the past five and half years. On May 29th, after moving in to our forever home and unpacking boxes and hanging up our favorite family photos, I went back to work and submitted my resignation.

Months ago, I felt the pull of full-time ministry on my life. I battled against it, reasoned with it, ignored it for as long as possible and eventually surrendered to it.

Jason and I have spent months praying through the next steps: planning, considering, wondering, imagining and praying. So much praying.

July 1st will be my last day of “gainful” employment and I walk away joyfully.

I have a story to tell, a book to write, women to reach and lead, and children to raise.

I’m not going to lie, I’m scared. We are scared. We have worked very hard to restore our financial state over the last six years as a family and for God to call us out now? It’s just craziness.

But that is what God does: He perfects the use of imperfect parts and pieces.

Heaven knows that I am as imperfect as they come.

My family has been amazingly supportive. My husband, kids, and parents. My friends are excited and nervous and praying for the very best. Others may not understand this decision.

I have a good job: a great job by worldly standards, and here I am surrendering my finances, my security, my credentials, my professional reputation and my potential as a Christian woman in the workforce. All for what?

For Jesus.

It is not a choice that everyone will have to make. Some of you will make your mark on the world in other ways. God will call on you to do other things.

As for me and my house?

I can’t help but focus on my Savior and sing…

All to Jesus, I surrender,

All to Him I freely give.

I will ever love and trust Him,

In His presence daily live .

All to Jesus I surrender,

Humbly at His feet I bow.

Worldly pleasures all forsaken,

Take me, Jesus, take me now!

I surrender all. 

I surrender all. 

All to Thee my blessed Savior, 

I surrender all. 

J.W. Van de Venter (1855-1939)


5 thoughts on “I Surrender All.

  1. So good. It is crazy. Crazy perfect. That’s why it feels crazy, because the world will never understand. I can’t wait to see what this season holds for you and the kingdom. Praise Jesus for your boldness and obedience.


  2. I’ve always said you are the bravest person I know. I am so proud you are following the calling of your Lord and Savior. I have a wonderful feeling about this . You will do great things and leave a mark. Especially in the hearts of my precious Grand babies. How blessed you are to be able to have this time. That word is bigger than we know. TIME. It passes so quickly. I love you. And could only hope to be just like you when I grow up.

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