Transitions


I am only human. I am not perfect in my thoughts, words, or actions; but God knows that I am trying.

This would be so much easier if there was a finished product already: if there were a dozen chapters written and ready for press. But there isn’t and there aren’t.

This is my third, official, day without a corporate job. Only three days that I’ve not had to set an alarm clock or put on “real” clothes. Yoga pants and t-shirts for me, thank you very much.

Day 3 and I am struggling.

The laundry is done, the bathrooms are clean, the meals are all planned out for the rest of the week. I’ve watched so much Grey’s Anatomy that I am, literally, dreaming of episodes where I am a cast member.

Yes, I’ve written some, but my thoughts are scattered. I can’t find a flow. Last week, there were a hundred thoughts swirling around my brain and my notebook is full of brain-dumping evidence. But I cannot make sense of any of it at the moment.

My new mentor says I should try outlining. I did, briefly, and found myself offended by the process. I don’t plan on what I write, I just write. I’m a feeler, not a thinker.

She’s challenging me to stretch.

*eye-rolls*

I’m sore from all the stretching.

But…I know that there is no magic bullet; no easy button.

I know that I must be diligent and committed and write even when it doesn’t feel natural or flow like water over a fall. I know that even if I peck out the words, slowly and painfully, like a faucet dripping in the middle of the night, I need to get it done.

I am only human.

Thanks for listening to me rant.

 

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3 thoughts on “Transitions

  1. Thank you for that. It came at the perfect time…​

    On Thu, Jul 7, 2016 at 10:32 AM, Brandi Cortes-Hickson wrote:

    > brandicorteshickson posted: ” I am only human. I am not perfect in my > thoughts, words, or actions; but God knows that I am trying. This would be > so much easier if there was a finished product already: if there were a > dozen chapters written and ready for press. But there isn’t ” >

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  2. I think you might find it easier to write if you took off some of the pressure. I know that’s obviously tougher to do with writing assignments from church, but for your own book, know that you have time. I know you feel like you SHOULD have x amount done already, but it’s been a long, long time since you tried to write anything even approaching this magnitude. And this isn’t corporate America. No-one is going to fire you from authoring your own book. No-one is watching over your shoulder. Primarily because “they” don’t want a knife in the eye. Lol.

    If you struggle with outlining, maybe try just a standard approach to your story, like coming at it chronologically. Write a few chunks of copy, then figure out how you would prefer those to be arranged or told. Straight line start to finish? Recounted tale with wisdom you’ve learned interjected into the old stories? Humor or not? I know you write what you feel, so your mentor is just trying to help you see where you want to go, so she can help you realize how to get there. I wouldn’t go super detailed because it doesn’t fit your style, just lay out the big touchstones you want to hit or the big messages you want to impart with each story. You’re doing awesome and I’m extremely proud of your work, your diligence and your bravery for both trying something new and pouring your heart out on paper.

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